December 1999
 

  My Story? Well, where do I start? I think I'm pretty much like most other people who practice this strange, misunderstood, ritual. I can remember as far back as 8 or 9 years old wanting to dress in women's clothing. I just enjoyed the way women looked in their clothes. The way it fit, the colors, the styles. I don't have any real explanations as to why I felt this way. I can't claim having had older sisters who dressed me up, or a mother who treated me like a daughter or anything. I just enjoyed it.

   As I got older, I tried to suppress my inner feelings. But eventually they would come out. Through the years it has progressed from just wearing a few articles, to full attire, makeup, and heels. After progressing through each level (through the years), the excitement was heightened! The feeling of first applying eye shadow, then foundation, mascara, blush and then lipstick has become an extremely gratifying experience. Then slipping on whatever I might be choosing to wear, sliding on a pair of high heels, and seeing that beautiful woman in the mirror is a totally transforming experience. It makes me feel beautiful, sexy, and desirable.

  Not long ago, I began surfing the net and ran across a number of web pages of other transgendered individuals. Then I discovered, I'm not the only one! With time I have become more bold about my dressing. There was never a time that I would have ventured outside my house as Darlene. However, I do it now, albeit very infrequently. I venture out late at night so that no one sees me, because I'm not ready to "go public" yet. I've begun going out late and taking pictures of myself all over town. I think I've been seen by a few people but, I don't think they knew or they weren't worried about me. I live in a small, southern town so, after about 2 am there's NOBODY out and that's when I do my thing.

   I'm not ready, as I said before, to venture out in public yet. But, I hope that this homepage proves to be my way of exposing myself to the world for who I am (at least part time). I'm not sure if I'm passable as of yet. I think I might be but, I'm not ready to find out yet. :-) I hope that those who are reading this are encouraged to not struggle with this part of who they are, but to embrace it as much as they can. I think I'm a lot saner for it.
 

Love,
Darlene
 
 

March 2001

  Well a lot has happened since I wrote the first part of this bio in December of 1999. For one, I've met numerous girl friends over the net who, have encouraged and enlightened me. Most of all I've found a new friend in my girl Kianna right here near where I live. Since I first placed my site on the web we've gotten together a few times to take pictures, and her help has been nothing short of a godsend. She has helped me improve my look so much. And, I think that we've both helped each other by just having someone to talk to who's in to the same thing as you. It's so healthy to be able to talk to someone about this "hobby".

  Also, I've gotten numerous overtures from people over the web. I was actually kind of surprised by this. I honestly did not think I looked nearly good enough for someone to ask out on a date! Maybe I'm wrong. I dunno. However, the attention has been much appreciated and only serves to give me a little more confidence and inspirtation. I certainly had not thought of myself anything but, heterosexual. However, sometimes I do wonder what it would be like to be treated like a lady for one date. Who knows, I may decide to do so some day soon! One of you men might be the lucky one!  ;-)

  Again, I do hope that others can find some kind of kindred spirit or inspiration by viewing my photos, and maybe through our sharing of ideas, I may recieve the same from someone. Toodles!

Love,
Darlene

January 2002

    Well, it's a new year! Wow, 2002 already. Seems like we were just talking about the new millenium and here we are, two years in already! Time has truly flown by and I've enjoyed every minute of it thus far!

  For those of you wondering, no, I haven't been out to a public event yet. However, I have been out a few times with Kianna to take pictures. So, I'm taking baby steps. Thanks to all of you who've sent words of encouragement. Hopefully, this will be the year that I reveal Darlene to the world!

  I appreciate all the nice letters from some of you guys to. You really know how to make a girl feel beautiful, when she really didn't have a lot of confidence. One of you is goin' to be the lucky one to take my next bridal pics with as my groom so, as Jesse says keep hope alive!  ;-)

  Finally, if any of you knows of a professional photographer that may be interested in doing a shoot with a TG model please let me know. I'm contemplating getting some professional photos done for a change.

February 2004

  Wow. It's been a very long time since I added anything to this bio. Well, only a few things have changed. I'm still not brave enough to go out to public events. But, I've made a little progress in that I do go out now and don't worry too much about people seeing me. I've been told I'm passable so much as of late that I may be starting to belive it (giggle). I think that I'm getting better with my clothes and makeup but, many of you will have to be the judge of that. Also, I finally started taking pictures with some male friends so, that's a step for me. Who knows where this thing is gonna go from here! It's been  a blast so far though.
 
 

Measurements:    36-27-37
Weight:  130 lbs
Height:  5'8"
Shoe:    10 - 11 (depending upon maker)
Dress:   10 - 12 (depending upon maker)
Favorite stores: Spiegel, Victoria's Secret, Ebay, Essence By Mail,